The Atonement Covers All Pain

"No pain that we suffer, no trial that we experience was wasted. It ministers to our education, to the development of such qualities as patience, faith, fortitude, and humility.... It is through sorrow and suffering, toil and tribulation, that we gain the education that we come here to acquire"

 - Elder Orson F. Whitney

"the savior is not a silent observer. He Himself knows personally and infinitely  the pain we face."

- Elder Kent F. Richards

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A broken heart...

June 7, 2011

my world came crumbling down.

I don't know what to do. 

I keep waiting for the pain but all I feel is numb. 

To my brynn:

my world has never had to exist without you. every memory is filled with your smile and laughter. you were always there to lift me from my sorrows, catch my tears when i finally let my guard down to let them fall, and calmed my fears. you always taught me to reach for my dreams and never let anything hold me down. you had more faith in me than i ever had and pushed me to succeed. since we were 4 years old you have been my partner in crime. skinny dippy in your swimming pool and lake powell, laughing until we cried with nothing but a single look, eating chips & salsa or chocolate pudding every summer day, sleepovers on my trampoline, or telling me how funny i am.

i was so blessed to get to have you in my life for so long. to have you as the example of what i wanted to be and of how to live my life. you filled my life with sunshine. i will never be able to find the words to express the sadness your early parting from this life has settled upon me. the memories we shared and love i have for you will forever be in my heart. not a day will pass that i wont think of your light.

i now have the greatest guardian angel anyone could as for. 

breast friends forever

i will try not to ask the question why? i know god has a greater plan.

you loved with everything you had, and I know that you were happy. the gospel and knowing that i will see you again someday gives me comfort.

But it doesn't stop the sadness.

I love you.

Erica Brynn Barton

November 8, 1986

June 7, 2011

 

For more memories check out Emma, Brynne, Amanda, Traci,  for a little love to warm your heart.

merveilleux

That is french for WONDERFUL!

(thank you iphone translator app!)

Remember how a little ways back I was wishing I could go see Les Miserables?

well friends.... dreams can come true!

thanks right, my step mom MC got tickets for all of us to go see it last Thursday, June 2.

It has been so long since the last time I saw it and I was so little I had forgotten how AMAZING it was. Minus the 30 minute break 10 minutes into the show when they had "technical difficulties" and a different man came out as one of the characters. It still took my breath away.

all dressed up for the night on the town!

 me whitney

 teresa, maryann, mc, catherine

catherine doubted my mad skills and thought I would cut her out of this picture.

we had fun during the unscheduled break!

The End of the World..

Remember a few weekends ago when the world was supposed to come to an end?

Yeah.

well, I spent it in St. George and Vegas with all the lovely ladies I work with at Dr. Maxfields office.

SO FUN! 

I love those girls, they always make me laugh! I had missed then so much since I only get to work one day a week because of school. 

Since I took a total of 5 pictures (seen below) click here to read Kathryn's blog. She just posted about it also and she took all the good pictures. Beware...I look really terrible in EVERY pic!!

 ashley, me, kathryn, francis

 francis and me

 kaite, ashley, kathryn and franics checking out the goodies at the mall

I might be obsessed with giant fake ice cream cones and H&M

just a little!

breathe...

first.

I am sorry about my last few posts. I was feeling really over whelmed with everything that was going on and SUPER stressed. I felt like I was standing under a waterfall trying to breathe!

3 weeks into my program..so far so good.

I am surviving. 

Kind of.

haha!

There is A LOT to learn, Lots of homework to do every night and never enough time!

But I am trying to look at the positive and not freak myself out. 

Take it a day at a time. 

breathe.


I moved some of my stuff to Provo. At least the few items that I will be needing. My room looks so naked and sad. Ill need to get pictures to hang up on my walls so its not so lonely in here. I left alot  of my clothes at my sisters since I have to wear my scrubs and white shoes to school everyday. Think I might invest in some colorful sweatshirts so I don't get bored!

so for now I am trying to keep up on all the homework

and still find time to have fun!

Ill try to take my camera to get pictures of my crazy life and some of the friends I have made so far at school. Everyone in my class is really great! I am excited. 

WISH ME LUCK!!

PS. starting in the fall I will need to be getting my own patients soooo...

If anyone would like to come it is only $10 and you will get to spend a little quality one on one time with this little lady while getting your teeth squeaky clean.

shout it from the roof tops and

Tell you friends!!

Also,
Thank you everyone for being so supportive of my crazy self this past month. I know I have been a cry baby waa face/hysterical mess.

Could not have made it through without you! 
Ill put my big girl panties on and stop being such a negative nelly. 

LOVE YOU ALL!!!

lucky

I am currently overwhelmed with a lot of things.

Today was my first day of school at UCDH. I was extremely stressed/nervous/anxious.

...and because of the new plan to move to Provo I had a lot hanging over my head.

After class was over and all the load was dumped on me...hello 18 credit hours this summer...

It all seemed to just explode!

I cried the entire 45 minute drive home

(yes I, Malorie, cried)

I felt like a giant dork for it with every car that passed but I couldn't stop.

But I feel very blessed even with all of that

I have the greatest family and friends.

They are so supportive and have more faith in me than I have in myself.

I will never be able to make it through the next 2 years without them.

I would also like to apologize for the many breakdowns that are too come over that time, along with freak outs, panic attacks, and raging hormones!

Sean & Lauren

This past weekend I got to spend a little time down in Cedar.

My brother Sean and sister-in-law Lauren graduated from SUU!

Congrats to them!

(I am currently bubbling over with jealousy because I have 2 more years of school....but at least its only 2 years right?)

 working his "hood" he gets to sport for getting his MBA

 Part of the family

 g-ma & g-pa fowler made it down for the event.

 our proud pops!

the rest of the family

After we went to The Pizza factory and ate lunch. So. Good!

I bumped into Andy and Jacki who was also down for her graduation. 

Then came the really fun part...

the whole family helped them finish packing up the rest of there house, cleaning every inch of the place, and said our good-byes.

 This is Zak (Laurens little brother) Tank is almost as big as him!

They are going to be spending the summer in Chicago selling alarms. Sean is installing and Lauren is in charge of paper work. They are making a little extra money for the new house they just bought.

Then,

They will be moving to Vegas into the new house at the end of summer.

Each of them got a job at a big fancy company so they will be living there for the next few years. They better not have babies too soon so that I can come visit when they do!

Congrats you guys!

I am so excited for you and all the 

adventures you have a head of you.

Love you both!

-me

On a side note- Tomorrow is the big day!

I am so nervous the only thing I can think of is a quote from Mean Girls: 

"I feel like my stomach is going to fall out of my butt!"

 haha makes me laugh every time!