breathe...

first.

I am sorry about my last few posts. I was feeling really over whelmed with everything that was going on and SUPER stressed. I felt like I was standing under a waterfall trying to breathe!

3 weeks into my program..so far so good.

I am surviving. 

Kind of.

haha!

There is A LOT to learn, Lots of homework to do every night and never enough time!

But I am trying to look at the positive and not freak myself out. 

Take it a day at a time. 

breathe.


I moved some of my stuff to Provo. At least the few items that I will be needing. My room looks so naked and sad. Ill need to get pictures to hang up on my walls so its not so lonely in here. I left alot  of my clothes at my sisters since I have to wear my scrubs and white shoes to school everyday. Think I might invest in some colorful sweatshirts so I don't get bored!

so for now I am trying to keep up on all the homework

and still find time to have fun!

Ill try to take my camera to get pictures of my crazy life and some of the friends I have made so far at school. Everyone in my class is really great! I am excited. 

WISH ME LUCK!!

PS. starting in the fall I will need to be getting my own patients soooo...

If anyone would like to come it is only $10 and you will get to spend a little quality one on one time with this little lady while getting your teeth squeaky clean.

shout it from the roof tops and

Tell you friends!!

Also,
Thank you everyone for being so supportive of my crazy self this past month. I know I have been a cry baby waa face/hysterical mess.

Could not have made it through without you! 
Ill put my big girl panties on and stop being such a negative nelly. 

LOVE YOU ALL!!!

lucky

I am currently overwhelmed with a lot of things.

Today was my first day of school at UCDH. I was extremely stressed/nervous/anxious.

...and because of the new plan to move to Provo I had a lot hanging over my head.

After class was over and all the load was dumped on me...hello 18 credit hours this summer...

It all seemed to just explode!

I cried the entire 45 minute drive home

(yes I, Malorie, cried)

I felt like a giant dork for it with every car that passed but I couldn't stop.

But I feel very blessed even with all of that

I have the greatest family and friends.

They are so supportive and have more faith in me than I have in myself.

I will never be able to make it through the next 2 years without them.

I would also like to apologize for the many breakdowns that are too come over that time, along with freak outs, panic attacks, and raging hormones!

Sean & Lauren

This past weekend I got to spend a little time down in Cedar.

My brother Sean and sister-in-law Lauren graduated from SUU!

Congrats to them!

(I am currently bubbling over with jealousy because I have 2 more years of school....but at least its only 2 years right?)

 working his "hood" he gets to sport for getting his MBA

 Part of the family

 g-ma & g-pa fowler made it down for the event.

 our proud pops!

the rest of the family

After we went to The Pizza factory and ate lunch. So. Good!

I bumped into Andy and Jacki who was also down for her graduation. 

Then came the really fun part...

the whole family helped them finish packing up the rest of there house, cleaning every inch of the place, and said our good-byes.

 This is Zak (Laurens little brother) Tank is almost as big as him!

They are going to be spending the summer in Chicago selling alarms. Sean is installing and Lauren is in charge of paper work. They are making a little extra money for the new house they just bought.

Then,

They will be moving to Vegas into the new house at the end of summer.

Each of them got a job at a big fancy company so they will be living there for the next few years. They better not have babies too soon so that I can come visit when they do!

Congrats you guys!

I am so excited for you and all the 

adventures you have a head of you.

Love you both!

-me

On a side note- Tomorrow is the big day!

I am so nervous the only thing I can think of is a quote from Mean Girls: 

"I feel like my stomach is going to fall out of my butt!"

 haha makes me laugh every time! 

Ch-Ch-Ch-Changes

I am doing it. 

I am biting the bullet.

I am making some really big changes in my life.

I could not be more scared.

change #1:

Moving to Provo

I know I said I would never move to Provo. I said that I would rather die then live there. But... Since I will be in school 4 days a week it just makes more sense to live down there even though I will still have to drive up for work most weekends. And I will make myself get out there and be more social. Make new friends. (hopefully some fellas!!)

change #2:

I will no longer be living with my bffs.

Brynn and Jelissa-

living with you for 3 years has been the greatest thing ever. We always had so much fun together. 

I am going to miss:

all the late night snack fests. 

the teeth brushing parties before bed. 

laughing so hard I cry out of exhaustion.

getting drilled for details about every date.

getting "the look" and knowing exactly why.

Sunday breakfast.

Love both you ladies!

change #3

Starting dental hygiene program

its finally here, Monday May 9th is just a few days away.

I know it doesn't seem like alot of changes but they are BIG changes. Huge life changing changes. I am so nervous. 

....and as much as I hate to admit this I did come home from doing all the stuff for my new room and shed of few tears to Brynn. She was very supportive. 

So look out Provo, here I come!

(please be kind to me!)

Now I am going to take my 4 days of summer vacation that I get and enjoy the sunshine in stg & watching Sean/Lauren graduate from SUU.